I turned my head away

I took my son to a Primary activity day, a couple of weeks ago. I also found out an interesting thing about me. I am a wimp, when it comes to Will.

Will loves Primary, but has not had much experience interacting with a lot of kids. When we came to the park, he clung to me and would not let me go. Several times, I got down on his level and told him, he would be o.k. Go and play, I would tell him, and he would not budge.

Every time I was speaking to him and telling him everything would be all right, I turned my head away and match his tears. I could not, and would not let him know how much it hurt me to see him scared. I would force myself to look at him in the eye and give a huge smile.

I will never let my son, see me struggle with his trials. I will always be the rock he needs for support. I see my future with my son, and I am going to turn my head, many, many times.